September 28

Tonight we're heading out to Tana and Alwin's. It's three years today since precious baby Matty (right) went to Jesus' home. Sam still talks about Jesus' home and tells us that even though it's a great place, when you go there, you don't come back.
It's such a hard day for Tana especially. She's such a brave woman who trusts God wholeheartedly, but this anniversary and his birthday are still particularly hard. I can't help but wonder why God wouldn't want them to have three beautiful boys. Why would God take away a child from parents who serve Him and who raise their children to know and love Him? I know, God doesn't play by our rules and ideas...and I know that He can take care of baby Matt better than we could...but it still doesn't make sense. I know, it's not supposed to. That's where the trust comes in.
Three years ago today, we snuggled Matty and sang him songs as his heartbeat got weaker and weaker. I'm still so thankful that I got to be there...and still so thankful for the people that were such a support to our family during that time. Stewart wasn't a part of our family officially then, but he contributed to the funeral service in a way that will always be remembered. What a special guy! So glad we can officially call him our own now!
And maybe an advantage to Tom being a twin instead of a single pregnancy is that he is just the snuggliest kid now...and boy, does auntie ever love that!